Insinuation 2.8

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“Call off your dogs!” Brian shouted.

The largest of the dogs, an ugly Rottweiler or a mutt with strong Rottweiler blood, seized my wrist in its jaws.  My knees almost buckled in response to the pain, which only worsened when it abruptly snapped its head to one side and wrenched my arm.  I fell, and in a heartbeat, the other two dogs – a German Shepherd and a hairless terrier with a missing ear and eye – were on me.

The German Shepherd set to barking and snapping at my face, occasionally catching the hair that hung in front of my face to pull at it.  The other started raking at me with its claws and nipping with its teeth, trying to find somewhere on my legs, body or backside that it could set its teeth into.

While those two were at it, the Rottweiler still had my wrist in its teeth, and it began pulling, as though it wanted to drag me somewhere.  I grit my teeth at the pain and tried to think something I could do that would amount to more than curling up into a fetal position to protect my arms, legs and face.

“Call off the fucking dogs!” I heard Brian bellow, again.

A tooth or claw scratched my ear.  I think that’s what spooked me, because my composure broke and I cried out.

Just a second or two later, a much longer span of time than it sounds like when a pack of dogs is tearing at you, there was a whistle.  Hearing the noise, the dogs abruptly backed off.  The one eyed terrier offered one hostile bark followed by a long growl even as it walked away, as if it still had enough mean left in it that it had to let it out somehow.

Lisa and Alec helped me to my feet.  I was shaking like a leaf.  One of my hands gripped the forearm of my other arm, as much to stop the worst of the trembling as to cradle the injury.  I had tears in the corners of my eyes and I was clenching my teeth so hard my jaw ached.

On the opposite side of the room, Brian was rubbing the back of one of his hands.  The three dogs were sitting in a neat line ten feet away from a girl who was lying on the ground. The girl had blood running from both of her nostrils.  I recognized her from the picture I had seen on her wiki page.  Rachel Lindt.  Hellhound.  Bitch.

“I fucking hate it,” Brian growled at the girl, putting emphasis on the swear, “When you make me do that.”

Bitch propped herself up a bit, half against the wall opposite me, so she had a better view of the room.  A better view of me.  Seeing her in person just confirmed my impressions of her from her picture online.  She wasn’t attractive.  An unkind person might call her butch, and I wasn’t feeling particularly kindly towards her.  Most of her features looked like they would have been better fit on a guy rather than a girl.  She had a square face, thick eyebrows, and a nose that had been broken more than once – maybe broken again just a moment ago, given the blood trickling from her nostrils.  Even as far as her physical build went, she was solidly built without being fat.  The trunk of her body alone was bigger around than mine was with my arms down at my sides, just by virtue of having a thicker, broader torso and having more meat on her bones.  She was wearing boots, black jeans with tears all over them, and a green army jacket over a gray hooded sweatshirt.  Her auburn hair was cut shortish.

I took a deep breath.  Then, speaking slowly so I wouldn’t stumble over my words or let a tremor into my voice, I asked “Why the fuck did you do that?”

She didn’t reply.  Instead, she licked her upper lip clean of blood and smiled.  It was a mean, smug sneer of a smile.  Even though she was the one lying on the ground with a bloody nose, she somehow had it in her head that she’d beat me.  Or something.

“God fucking dammit!” Brian was shouting.  He went on to say something else, but I didn’t really hear it over the buzzing of my power in my ears.  I realized I was clenching my fist, and habitually forced myself to relax it.

Then, like I had done so many times over the past few days and weeks, I searched for a reason to justify why I was backing down.  It was almost reflexive.  When the bullies got on my case, I always had to take a moment to collect myself and tell myself why I couldn’t or shouldn’t retaliate.

For a few moments, I felt adrift.  Around the same time that I realized I couldn’t find a reason to back off, I realized I had already wrenched free of Lisa and Alec’s support and crossed half of the room at a run.  I reached for my bugs and realized I’d been using my power without thinking about it.  They were already gathering at the stairs and by the windows.  All it took was a thought, and they started flowing into the room in greater numbers.  Cockroaches, earwigs, spiders and flies.  Not as many as I might have liked, I hadn’t been using my power for long enough to gather those from further around the neighborhood, but it was enough to count.

Bitch saw me approaching and raised her fingers to her mouth, but I didn’t give her a chance to signal her animals.  I kicked for her face like I might kick a soccer ball, and she aborted the whistle to cover her head with her arms.  My foot bounced off of one of her arms and her entire body recoiled as she flinched.

Because I hadn’t slowed down before reaching her, I had to use my hands to stop myself from running into the wall.  A line of red hot pain ran down my arm at the impact, starting at the point where the Rottweiler had bitten my wrist.  Reminded of the dogs, I glanced to my right, and saw the largest of them standing, ready to come to his master’s aid.  I brought a large share of my bugs in between myself and the beasts.  The last I saw of them before the swarm blocked most of my view, the dogs were rapidly backing away from the swarm, startled.

Finding myself standing over Bitch, braced against the wall, I pressed the attack.  Her arms were covering her face and chest, but I saw her exposed ear as a target and brought my foot down on it.  Her head bounced against the floor, and blood bloomed from the top of her ear.  The sight of the blood almost stopped me, but I knew that backing down now would give her a chance to set them on me again with a whistle.  My toe found her exposed stomach, and as she drew her knees upward to protect her belly, I aimed a sharp kick between her legs.  I managed to get kicks to connect firmly with ribs three times before she brought an elbow down to protect it.

I didn’t get a chance to do any more damage, because the dogs had gotten over their fear of the bugs and were closing in, circling around me and Bitch as the swarm extended.  I abandoned my assault on Bitch to step away and face them.  I knew I could set my bugs on them, but something told me the dogs weren’t about to yelp and run away while their master was being hurt.  I might have the swarm attack them, but if the pain of the bites and stings didn’t stop them, they’d attack me and I’d be in the same situation I’d been in a minute ago.  I doubted Bitch would call them off a second time.

A shadow fell over my vision, like a jet black curtain sweeping in front of me, blocking my view of half the room and the dogs.  It dissolved into wisps of black smoke a second later, and I was startled to see Brian right in front of me, between me and the dogs.

“Enough,” he intoned.  The little one-eared cyclops of a terrier snarled at him in response.

There was a sound I didn’t recognize.  It was only when Bitch tried again, more successfully, that I realized the first sound had been a weak attempt at a whistle.  The dogs looked to their master and then retreated, still edging away from the swarm.  I backed away a little as well, being careful to keep Brian between myself and the mongrels.

Bitch coughed, then raised her head to look me in the eye.  She rubbed her ear with one hand, and her palm was red with blood as she pulled it away.  As the German Shepherd approached her, she rested the same hand on its head.  The other two dogs moved closer to her, as if they could protect her, but their attention was fixed entirely on me and Brian.

When a good few seconds had passed and Bitch had made no further overtures of aggression towards me, I sent an instruction to the swarm to make their exit.  I could see Brian visibly relax as they faded into the cracks.

“No more fighting,” he said, his voice calmer, “I’m directing that at you, Rachel.  You deserved whatever Taylor gave you.”

She glared at him, coughed once, and then glanced at the other two before turning her angry gaze to the floor.

“Taylor, come sit down.  I promise we’ll-”

“No,” I interrupted him, “Fuck this.  Fuck you guys.”


“You said she wasn’t cool with me joining.  You never said she was pissed off enough to try and kill me.”

Bitch and Brian started speaking at the same time, but Brian stopped when she started coughing.  As her coughing fit subsided, Bitch looked up at me and snarled, “If I ordered them to kill you, Brutus would have torn out your throat before you could scream.  I gave them the hurt command.”

I laughed a little, just a little more high pitched than I would’ve liked, “That’s great.  She has her dogs trained to hurt people.  Seriously?  Fuck you guys.  Count this as another failed recruitment.”

I headed for the stairs, but I didn’t get two steps before that curtain of black appeared again, blocking my way.  Brian’s powers in the wiki had been listed as darkness generation.  I knew where the stairs and the railing for the stairs was, so I put my hand in front of me to make sure I wasn’t walking into an opaque forcefield, and on finding it to be more like smoke, I kept moving.  As I entered it, the blackness slithered over my skin, oily with a weird consistency to it.  Combined with an absolute lack of light that left me unable to tell whether my eyes were open or shut, it was ominous.

As my hands made contact with the railing, a pair of hands settled on my shoulders.  I wheeled around and knocked them away, my voice raised as I half-shouted, “Back off!”

Except the words barely reached me.  The sound echoed as if from a distant place, and had a hollowness to it that made me think of someone shouting from the bottom of a deep well.  The darkness didn’t just block off the light.  It swallowed up noises as well.    I’d let go of the railing when I turned to face the other person in the darkness, and I had a moment’s panic when I realized I couldn’t tell where the stairs were anymore.  The texture of the darkness was inconsistent, making it hard to identify the full scope of my movements.  I was reminded of those times I had been underwater and lost track of which direction the surface was.  I could tell which way was up, sure, but that was about it.

Sensory deprivation.  When those two words came to my mind, I felt myself relax some.  Brian’s power mucked with your senses… Sight, hearing, touch.  I wasn’t limited to those three.  Reached out with my power, I identified where all of the bugs in the loft and the factory below were.  Using them to ground myself like a sailor might use the constellations, I figured out where the stairs should be and found the railing.  The hands hadn’t grabbed for me again, so I hurried down, down the stairs and out of the oppressive darkness.

I was only a few paces from the door when Brian called for me, “Taylor!”

When I turned to face him, I saw he was alone.

“You’re going to use your power on me again?” I asked, wary, angry.

“No.  Not in the open, not uncostumed, and not on you.  It was stupid of me to do it in the first place.  I wasn’t thinking, I just wanted to stop you from bolting.  I can barely tell it’s there, so I forget how it can affect other people.”

I started to turn away, ready to walk, but Brian took a quick step in my direction, and I stopped.

Brian tried again, “Look, I’m sorry.  About using my power on you, about Bitch.”

I cut him off before he could get any further, “You don’t have to worry.  I won’t tell anyone what you guys showed me tonight, I won’t be attacking you guys if I run into you in costume.  I’m pissed, but I’m not that pissed.”  I wasn’t sure how much of that was a lie, but it seemed like the thing to say.

When he didn’t say anything in response, I added, “You guys offered me a choice.  I could take the money and go, or I could join.  Let me change my mind.  After what your teammate just did, you owe me that much.”

“If it were up to me, I’d kick Bitch out and keep you,” Brian spoke.

His words were like a bucket of water in my face, waking me up.  I’d been pissed, furious, and why?  Because I’d felt betrayed and disappointed.  The irony of that, given my whole reason for being there in the first place, didn’t escape me.  I wouldn’t have been as disappointed and betrayed as I was if I didn’t enjoy their companionship on some level.  Here Brian was, expressing similar sentiments from the other side of things.

I let out a long sigh.  I guessed, “But you won’t?”

“It’s complicated.  As much as I want you on the team, we count on the boss for our allowances, information, equipment and for fencing anything we steal.  We count on her to deploy our heavy hitters.  We’d lose all that if we kicked her out.”

“I became a-” I almost said superhero, “cape to get away from that shit, from assholes like Bitch.”  There was also the fact that Tattletale spooked me, but I couldn’t say that out loud.

“Come back inside, Taylor.  Please.  I personally guarantee I won’t let her pull another stunt like that or I’ll quit the team.  You’re hurt, you’re bleeding, your clothes are ripped, and you left your bag with the money upstairs.  I’m trained in first aid.  At least let us patch you up, get you in some new clothes.”

I glanced down at my arm.  I had my right hand clasped around my other wrist, and there was blood on the sleeve of my sweatshirt.  And my costume was still upstairs?  Fuck.

“Fine,” I sighed, “But just so you know, I’m only coming back because she doesn’t want me to.  I quit, she wins, and I’m not fucking having that.”

Brian smiled and opened the door for me, “I’ll take what I can get.”

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46 thoughts on “Insinuation 2.8

  1. Bummer there wasn’t meaner bugs near by to call in, though in a way it was bound to happened. Bitch wants to figure out who is top dog…. (ok I only half ment that pun), so maybe if Taylor is lucky she will only do a lot of yelling now.

    • Quite accurate, actually.
      I remember thinking on my first readthrough that Taylor’s takedown of Bitch was a lot like how Ender dealt with Stilson in Ender’s Game/i>–a quick, unexpected strike after the cronies dealt some minor blows, followed by total beatdown. A bit more total to Stilson, but Taylor was trying to hold back and Rachel had more of an advantage.

      • TOTALLY this. The entire way through reading this(I just finished the story yesterday) I’ve been drawing parallels between Ender and Taylor, and using that as a reference when describing her to others. They’re basically compassionate people but when they need to win… They win. However it’s necessary to do so.

        • It makes a little too much sense, really… both of them are determined. Both, however, know very well the danger of letting themselves go unchained, and so hold themselves in check very stringently. However, when pushed past the brink, both strike out not so much in retaliation as to ‘win this battle, and every one that follows’. However, Taylor is much less… clinical, about her approach to it.

  2. Thanks, dmol8. Fixed.

    The first few arcs have their typos. The later arcs do too, but I’ve got plans to go back and revise arcs 1-4 to current standards. I think my writing’s improved since I started Worm. Had my writer’s circle go over it, with comprehensive lists of issues both minor and major; it’s just a matter of finding the time to apply those changes.

  3. I think this was the first instance where it really hit me, “jeeze, Taylor’s power is terrifying.” I could vividly hear the sound her swarm would make in the relatively confined space of the loft in my head. The other undersiders must have had minor heart attacks when they realised just what bug control really entails, up close and personal.

  4. This is another of those points that a different choice on Taylor’s part would have lead to a significantly different story, possibly fanfic-worthy.

    • Yeah, if she left instead? That would be… Interesting. That happens and… Sheesh, there’s no telling how any of the major confrontations(those Taylor doesn’t start) would turn out.

  5. I’m here from HPMoR, too. I really hope the “good guys” vrs “bad guys” dichotomy doesn’t stay as delineated as it seems so far. I’m far more interested in moral dilemmas as they exist in reality rather than the kind of over-simplified, colorless versions one finds in cartoons and video games. I’ve enjoyed the character building so far, and the plot is engrossing. This comes highly recommended, so I’m anticipating a lot of pleasure from reading it. I am assuming the gang of hoodlums isn’t going to turn out to be so bad, nor the superheroes so good, and I’m looking forward to finding out.

    Human societies make governments with economies, even when the society is set in a corrupt libertarian anarchy. Most people are good to people we like, who we consider are like “us,” and we don’t care about “them”–the strangers or people we consider our enemies. I’m interested to see what kind of governments and economies exist in this story.

    • I don’t believe it’d be a spoiler to say that based on your stated criteria, you will not be disappointed. If you have other unstated criteria then obvs the remainder of the story may fall short on some level, but as someone who also came here from HPMoR(albeit of a far less hypercritical bent than many), I was utterly enthralled.

      Questionable morality is my absolute favourite element of a good superhero story, and Worm delivers in spades. The “othering” you speak of in regards to government and other ‘official’ agencies plays a strong part at various points, and I found the adaptation of society to the introduction of parahumans to be very plausibly done.

      Welcome to the family, be careful of reading the comments on your first readthrough. Blatant spoilers are verboten but there may be allusions or speculation that could damage your experience if you’re that kind of person.

      Yes, “first” readthrough; if you enjoy it as much as many of us did you’ll probably go back through it after you’re all done to pick up some of the foreshadowing that was too subtle to be noticed without already understanding the events to which it alludes.

  6. Honestly, having an established “hurt (don’t kill)” command is probably the most reasonable thing Rachel’s done so far. That’s like the default number one rule of superhero fights, for in-story (“let’s not lose a character every time there’s a fight scene”) and out-of-story (“if you kill them their friends will find you”) reasons.

  7. Oh so satisfying.
    Psychologically speaking I could never figure out whether this episode of violence was good or bad for Tyler. She’s wanted to hit someone/thing for a long long time.

  8. Good. bleed off some of that fear. That stress and the pain that comes with it. Next time it won’t be as jerky or violent. It’s not the best sort of therapy, but it is one that works.

  9. I’m seeing all these comments about how Taylor’s not taking anyone’s crap anymore, and can’t help but be amused. Not just because it’s my third read, but because it’s so ludicrous. Over the course of hours, going from not even trying to get her bag from a group of bullies to being willing to kick them in the face? Clearly, the Rachel thing isn’t a direct parallel to the Emma thing. Why?
    1. Rachel is a bitch. Pun intended. She’s a supervillain, she’s a murderer, she’s a crazy girl who said “Hi” with three attack dogs. Emma used to be Taylor’s friend, and she probably at least vaguely knows the other bullies—enough to put them above the level of “supervillain,” surely.
    2. Retaliation…okay, Rachel could sic her dogs on Taylor, but that’s about it. You can tell that Taylor’s concerned
    3. Support. If Taylor reacted to the bullies, she would be ridiculed and hated by much of the school and possibly the faculty (see #2). The Undersiders are presumably more open towards violent revenge, especially when it’s eye-for-eye.
    4. Repetition. Bullies who get reactions do it more. If Taylor beats up Rachel, she’s likely to do it less—as she could infer from Brian using that technique.
    5. Publicity. If Taylor punched Madison in her saccharine mouth, the school, the authorities, and worst of all Danny Hebert* would find out. In this factory, not so much.

    *Would you believe that until pretty recently, I thought it was “Herbert”? It took a pronounciation guide to correct me. I’ve been a fan of Worm for how long?

    • I must also add that this fits in with Taylor’s personality, she interprets the situation and acts in logical ways.

    • Wait it’s not herbert… How did I make this mistake for an entire read-through and several arc rereads.

    • I think it’s a little more simple than this. Go back a little earlier to where Taylor is being bullied at school. She laments that there’s no simple response to the bullying, and wishes she could respond to mere violence with mere violence. I think this is just an example of that.

  10. I’m sure Taylor found beating on Rachel to be very cathartic. It can be very liberating to shrug off the baggage of all those rules and expectations that come with civilized society.

    On an entirely unrelated note, I’m not one hundred percent convinced Taylor exhibits the kind of emotional detachment required for successful undercover work. I guess there’s a reason they don’t usually send teenagers desperate to hang out with cool people.

  11. To me it’s as if as well as using her two identities as a form of escapism from the bullying, she is able to create an alter ego if you will during her cape life, doing the things she only wishes that she could do in real life. I am hopeful that now the two worlds are beginning to merge (as she has given away her true identity) she will grow more confident in her everyday life and be able to stand up to the bullies and take charge of her own destiny.

    This is my first read through having been introduced by onw of my friends, and I am hooked!

  12. I just started reading this, after it being suggested to me by a cousin of mine, and I must say, I am hooked. I’m going through that same kind of identity crisis Taylor is going through, and I identify with her surprisingly well (surprisingly, because I’m a thirteen-year-old boy). I already love this so much that I’m referring to Taylor as a real person, you see? I also somewhat admire the fact that she doesn’t fight back all those bitches at her school, only Bitch, and that her two worlds have thee same characters in them, and she can’t choose which one to follow. This has to be published soon, because I have a friend who refuses to read online stories, and this is just to amazing to pass up.

  13. Just found this story through reddit and I’m really enjoying it so far. You do a good job really making me feel for Taylor and I like how you introduce new characters. Even side characters seem to be well rounded and diverse so far. There was one thing that bugged me, maybe I just missed it and that’s why I’m confused. I thought when she was at the school her backpack got stolen, but here it says she has it?

  14. Editorial:

    – “I managed to get kicks to connect firmly with ribs three times before she brought an elbow down to protect it.” — Pronoun disagreement between “ribs” and “it”.
    – Does “cape” mean any parahuman, just one who exercises their power in the public sphere, or strictly superheroes? Here Taylor is using it in a neutral sense, but in a previous chapter Tattletale says “a cape is gonna show up in less than a minute” in which it sounds more like a reference to heroes.

  15. Now that’s more like it. That’s how you stand up for yourself lol.
    And wow she really did in Lung back there.

  16. Whether she wants to be or not Taylor is already more villain than hero because that attack on Bitch was a villain attack.

  17. Ok, so I didn’t before feel like commenting before since this story is completed but I gotta say this: Why is Taylor trying to join this group? Like I get that the previous chapter trying to join to get info could be teenage overconfidence but this really just doesn’t seem like a smart idea. She has more than enough information about them now to Armsmaster like their names, TattleTale’s power and her using it to spy on everyone, an apparent boss, and that they work here. She has her suit still upstairs sure but I’m sure Armsmaster could make her a better one anyway.

    Also if you do comment back to not seem so negative i have been liking a lot of the other parts of the story so far. For example you’re really good at making me feel for Taylor when she has to deal with the Mean Girl Trio.

    • I don’t like people pushing political correctness. As it only leads to the death of creativity and artistic expression.

  18. “Fine,” I sighed, “But just so you know, I’m only coming back because she doesn’t want me to. I quit, she wins, and I’m not fucking having that.”

    She seemed pretty logical before but after last few chapters I’m pretty sure she’s not right in the head.

  19. Why the fuck did she not call her bugs when she was attacked by the dogs? Is her holding back with her bullies so trained that she will not defend even if she is scared to death?

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